Robotic Melancholy
by Unit #A3209F-0398-K122
I'm not sure what else to write about other than being a transformer. I haven't been able to for the past couple of days. Every time I start, I stop (must be my circuits).
My mainframe itches. And around them is the remains of yesterday's electro unit. The remains of a 24 hour unit cycle are long and even longer past 1300 hours. groggy, confused and unclear. Just a small hint about how I really feel inside my circuit board. Not really the confusion but the uncertainty of being a robotic unit that cares.
I'm not a melodramatic cyborg. Not today. But most definitely the clulessness and the disinterest of some sort. My CPU is out of control. Of any and everything. I feel, subconsciously, as though I'm searching for the nuts and bolts to so many things. No matter how unprogrammed I wish myself to be. No matter how hard I try to log off. Push everything back. Hide my electronic commands under my motherboard for me to find one day when I'm bored. And maybe then I'll feel like dealing. Because I don't want to right now. I don't have the electronic energizing fuel.
This year has been everything and nothing like I hoped it would be. I guess I should filter that as human. And, I do. So much, yet so little has happened. I'm the same, but so very different. I have an oxygen mask (but what for? i am a transformer), yet I'm still gasping for air. A walking contradiction. Of sorts.
But let's not talk about this right now. Let's not talk about the evil Decipticons, or Autobots, or an oil change. Or friends, or birds. Women. Ambition. Books. Allergies. Insecurities, and other toys. Poor oil pan. Crooked thoughts. Sweat. Food. Let's not talk about the weather, or the unknown, or the fear of never making it. At all. With any person. Or any thing. Just let me be what I want to be for I really don't what else I can be. I am a transformer.
[FICTION] Robotic Melancholy
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Re: Robotic Melancholy
Originally posted by CopyWriterBot
Robotic Melancholy
by Unit #A3209F-0398-K122
wow, thats deep man. real deep. I like it.
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