Whatever u do don't ever fake ur death!
- Starscreamer
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Whatever u do don't ever fake ur death!
I pulled a horrible prank in January for which I will forever be sorry. I enjoy being Starscreamer the prankster, the backstabber, in essence the "Starscream" and most of my jokes were always met with laughter and I was a beloved member of the online world of Tfer fans. The truth is that I am not happy in real life. I am a successful student, friend, uncle, brother, and son yet I keep to myself. I have always felt a lonliness inside. I guess part of it is growing up gay and feeling isolated from others. I did have a bit of breakdown over Christmas (I find holidays depressing). I just wanted attention, I wanted to know that I was cared about that somewhere people would miss me if I was gone. The outpouring of love was overwhelming to me so I absorbed it. I never dreamed it would upset people as much as it did. I was rightfully banned from Transfans although I protested and tried everyway that I could to get back on. The admins there stood there ground and for that I am grateful. My entire life I have been able to talk my way out of anything (good politician) but they would not budge. I will always respect them for that. That experience helped prompt me to seek help in real life. I saw a doctor and after some testing he stated that I have Social Anxiety Disorder and I am borderline bi-polar. He put me on medication and I feel so much better inside and out. I created TransCons to pour my energy into something worthwhile and to give back something nice to Transfandom. I just more than anything want to make up for what I did and I want everyone to know that I am genuinely sorry. Thank u to the Archive for giving me somewhere to go. We have many good decent people that post at these sites and Thank you to those who have been there for me during some very rocky years (u know who u are). This post was posted by Starscreamer but it was written by Ross with nothing but the best intentions and the upmost gratitude to you all. Thank you
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Bi-Polar eh?
Screamer dude you should get checked to see if you have excess heavy metals in your body. There is evidence that bi-polar disorder is a result of lead or mercury interfering with neurotransmitters and thus causing the problem.
Find a doctor that uses EDTA or DMPS (preferably DMPS) in chelation. Get a DMPS challenge test. I did and I found out that I have LOTS BAD MERCURY. Back in the day I was depressed and went on Tofranil.
*pats Starscreamer for being honest*
Yeah I understand man, I totally understand.
Aaaaaaand for a laugh here:
"Homer when you bought that dummy I asked you if it was to fake your own death and you said no!"-Marge Simpson, Grandma Simpson ep.
Find a doctor that uses EDTA or DMPS (preferably DMPS) in chelation. Get a DMPS challenge test. I did and I found out that I have LOTS BAD MERCURY. Back in the day I was depressed and went on Tofranil.
*pats Starscreamer for being honest*
Yeah I understand man, I totally understand.
Aaaaaaand for a laugh here:
"Homer when you bought that dummy I asked you if it was to fake your own death and you said no!"-Marge Simpson, Grandma Simpson ep.
"This appears to be a copy of Final Fantasy, which is a step up from a copy of Pearl Jam"-Ed the Sock, on Fromage 2002, about one of Creed's videos--"Bullets".
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Settle down...
...kiddiwinks. The RP is becoming leaden already.
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Well I'm glad you admitted it, and as much as I used to be known for suicide attempts(none of which were fake if I said i was gonna do it I usually had some sort of pills or a knife to try and kill myself with) and the like that has all really subsided since I met my Casey(the girl I blabber on about un-conbtrollably) and though I had been suicidal while knowing her it was only after we expressed feeling past friendships for eachother that I became really happy.
Anyways I have been depressed for a long time according to my docters, though a huge change has been noted since i switched schools and fell madly inlove.
And as red said 'Just never do it again'
Anyways I have been depressed for a long time according to my docters, though a huge change has been noted since i switched schools and fell madly inlove.
And as red said 'Just never do it again'
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I guess that leaves me the board suicidal person hey?Originally posted by Blaster_86
Well I'm glad you admitted it, and as much as I used to be known for suicide attempts(none of which were fake if I said i was gonna do it I usually had some sort of pills or a knife to try and kill myself with) and the like that has all really subsided since I met my Casey(the girl I blabber on about un-conbtrollably) and though I had been suicidal while knowing her it was only after we expressed feeling past friendships for eachother that I became really happy.
Anyways I have been depressed for a long time according to my docters, though a huge change has been noted since i switched schools and fell madly inlove.
And as red said 'Just never do it again'
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The lesson is...
..don't mess with mod's and lie about it or you get your ass banned.
Now could everybody repeate after me "I will not f#@k with the mod..........."
Now could everybody repeate after me "I will not f#@k with the mod..........."
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Re: The lesson is...
"I will not f#@k with the mod..........."Originally posted by Jetfire 2.1
..don't mess with mod's and lie about it or you get your ass banned.
Now could everybody repeate after me "I will not f#@k with the mod..........."
I will never...
...sleep with Jetfire.Originally posted by Jetfire 2.1
everybody repeate after me